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no money, more problems

tammytamtam — Sun, 27 Jun 2010 07:56:56 +0000

“mo’ money, mo’ problems” – yeah, for those people who have money.

for my situation it’s more, no money, more problems. money rules the world. and when you don’t have it, it sucks nuts.

when there was money, i was living it up. let me tell you. some times, i really feel as if i really don’t know what happened. and i am a frugal person, very frugal. but i guess it’s true when you have it, you spend it.

now when there is no money. i feel the struggle, i mean i really feel it, believe me.

by: nwap

upset at 4:40 am

tammytamtam — Mon, 24 May 2010 11:46:50 +0000

i fucking had a huge ass wish list on urbanoutfitters.com now….because of a lag when i was shaping it up everything, everything since the first time i was on this website is gone. all the things i saved. the styles. the wants. the needs. the unnecessaries. the gifts. i fucking hate insomnia. if only i wasn’t so impatience and waited for the lag to be over then clicked, everything would still be there. but here i am freaking out about what i saved, how sad right. i know i shouldn’t obsess over shit like this but damn, all that saving. fuck.

by: le sigh

all about him

tammytamtam — Mon, 10 May 2010 23:39:50 +0000

even on mother’s day it has to be all about him.

i hate that my family lies around me. why do it? why am i always considered as the outsider? my whole family says it’s because i make myself the outsider. really? i have never made myself the outsider, every time i am there no one wants to talk to me, when i am not there everyone wants to talk to me. the only reason why i leave is because no one wants me around. exactly what does everyone want. how am i able to please everyone.

all they kept talking about was when is the graduation. why keep asking me when no one tells me anything? and they look at me like why don’t you know, hmm…maybe because no one tells me shit. i was the last person to find out when he was graduating. everybody seemed to know, and even had a plan on how to get there “together”. even though i am NOT included. wtf! seriously.

then they had the nerve to ask me, why i did not go to the buffet with them the day before….i said “what buffet, no one called me.” and they looked at me like quit lying, your parents said you didn’t want to go. WTF! how can i not want to go when i didn’t even know about it. you fucking idiots!!!

i hate my family. i hate that they hide shit from me. i hate when people lie. and what i hate the most is when they are people you are suppose to trust.

by: pok kais

hypnotizing

tammytamtam — Tue, 13 Apr 2010 09:23:46 +0000

birthday

tammytamtam — Fri, 09 Apr 2010 08:50:46 +0000

it’s my birthday…yeah! yay!

this cake is cool, i want this cake.

by: twenty4

hold him back

tammytamtam — Thu, 08 Apr 2010 01:27:14 +0000

it’s funny how the relationship is unfair.

we both wake up at the same time. we both take about 30 minutes to get ready in the morning. if i go to get ready first, after i come out he would either be still sleeping, on the computer, or watching tv. if he goes first, after when he comes out he yells or “talks loud” to me, “alright it’s your turn”, “come on hurry up”, “get up already”, “go take a shower”. and then when i am in the shower, 15 minutes in, he will come in and start to yell, “can you hurry up”, “your taking so long”, “why are you so slow”. are you fucking serious!? damn i haven’t even put soap on my body yet!

yesterday morning, i woke up and told him the time. because last night he said he would take a shower first, i just kept laying there. a couple of minutes pass and he says “can you go first?” so i say okay, and all of a sudden he gets up to go take a shit. i am not taking a shower at the same time you are taking a shit, i don’t want to smell shit when i am taking a clean shower!!! so i just keep laying there, thinking okay when he walks out i will go inside to take a shower. when he’s done he comes out stomping, and starts to yell “get up, man never mind i’m going to take a shower first. fuck, you always hold me back.” WTF!

every fucking morning, all i hear is yelling. i mean seriously, i think that is the reason why i can’t sleep at night because i know in the morning he will start to yell. i can’t stand it. i can’t sleep at night. i don’t want to hear it in the morning. i am loosing my hair. i have nightmares. i have noticeable dark bags under my eyes.

by: resolution

put me down

tammytamtam — Wed, 17 Mar 2010 20:46:30 +0000

lately, school has started once again. there won’t be enough time for me to write a lot. even though i really love to write what i feel. i feel like the more i go on, the more i get depressed. i feel like i haven’t been happy, i mean truly happy in a long time. how can you be when the one person that makes you happy even puts you down. why does my life suck so much. i am such a failure, people know it, i know it. i wish life can be better.

by: ress

winter olympics

tammytamtam — Sat, 20 Feb 2010 10:29:52 +0000

as everyone knows as of lately the winter olympics have been going on, on channel 4, some times i just watch out of boredom never really interested in any of the sports. secretly, i watched to wait for someone to fall or trip or just fuck up. i know sad and mean huh. but eh. but then i turned to the channel one day and they were playing this weird sport. i swear it is just so weird i didn’t even know this was a sport, contestants ski with a gun strapped to their back, reach a destination, either stand or lay down to shoot 5 targets, every miss adds 2 seconds to your final time. i think i just found my favorite winter olympic sport, biathlon. really i just like it because, com’on they are racing with guns strapped to their backs and shooting!!! so dope.

i want to shoot at stuff.

lay flat to get a study aim.

i want one of these!!! to block your eyes.

by: kuzmina

happy chinese new year!

tammytamtam — Mon, 15 Feb 2010 12:25:00 +0000

another new year. but this year is the year of the tiger, and i was born in the year of the tiger. according to the chinese fortune tellers this means bad luck. i hope everything will be okay, let’s hope for the best!

gong hay fat choi!

so, where’s my red envelope? =)

by: choy sun

sweetness

tammytamtam — Sat, 13 Feb 2010 08:17:38 +0000

for some reason this just looks so sweet…between i also want to eat it. >.<

by: saint valentine